It wasn’t very often that clients received random calls to their counselor office. And though it didn’t happen very often, there were times that people had loved ones who had a medical emergency, or who had passed away and so THAT is why you would get called to your counselor’s office. And here I was being summoned. I immediately dreaded that walk down the hill from my cabin to his office. I was so afraid that something had happened to my children, my mother or family. But, when I got there my counselor informed me that nothing bad had happened as far as family or their health, safety and well –being, but that my probation officer had called.
My probation officer had recommended to the judge for me to go to another program instead of the safe house. I would be going to a halfway house for not 30 days, but at least another three months! My heart sank. I just wanted to be at Living in Liberty so I could be away from all the negativity of other struggling addicts. I just wanted to be alone with the Lord, spend time with just Him and myself. I wanted to be with the Lord AND that small innocent inner child that I had left abandoned after all that chaos, pain and trauma.
While this definitely was not the news I was expecting, there was a nudge of comfort and a whisper of peace saying, “I’m here…just trust Me. My plan is and will always be FOR you and your family. And while you may not understand it, I hear you. I see you and I know your heart.” And with that I counted down the few remaining days at the Cove before I would go to the next stop in God’s plan.